I Hope You Like Pain.

so as i look through old computer files, pictures, school projects and aim convos I realize how much has changed and how fast that time flew by. 2007 was so amazing. Everything came full circle in my life and loose ends were tied. I feel like all of the struggles I went through in 2006 made me appreciate how much I have. I love where my life ended up and I appreciate so much that is around me. I learned a lot from moving to SoCal and I admit that I could never have learned so much had I stayed in my comfort zone. Moving away made me realize who I am and the people that have stayed with me thru it all have come forward as being those who matter most to me. Real friends are very hard for me to come by and I would much rather have a few close ones than numerous acquaintances. The part that I appreciate the most is the restoration of my relationship. I never realized how much my relationship made up my life. What is most significant is that I can honestly say I am comfortably settled down. No regrets, no fear, and no question of where I am meant to be and what I'm meant to do. I love who I have become and I love who I am striving to be which is saying a lot considering where I was at this time last year. And that saying that when you find true love, you just know....well I finally know. =)

Which brings me to the subject of relationships. I love talking about relationships. Good and Bad I feel that relationships show an individual's greatest strengths and their biggest weaknesses. I think that relationships reveal the true person. Stripped away the judgements and facades people put up in social situations, relationships are so real. Being in a long term relationship is an interesting experience. People assume that since you've been with that person for so long that your relationship is perfect. Yet, it has taken me almost 7 years to find my true self in this relationship. It's taken this long to finally fully appreciate my place and self in this relationship. More importantly I think that maturity is really the biggest factor in being able to grow with someone rather than growing apart from that person. I love the fights, I love the struggles the most. I feel that the fights are what truly prove the strength of the relationship. As much as I love the peaceful times, I love getting through the worst. I feel fights are when love shines its brightest. As hard as it has been to get to this point in my relationship, I can say the present is the best that it has been. Being comfortable with yourself and loving who you are plays the biggest role in how you can get along with your significant other. I can go on forever about this...but I think I'll stop here. I've been thru so much with this part of my life and I feel that it's made me reach my highest highs and sink to my lowest low. But it's all worth it in the end. I love you =)

anyway...I'm ready for 2008. I'm excited for the new adventures, struggles and people in the new year.

I guess my current theme of my life is a perpetuation forward building from my history but never dwelling on the past.

I love the memories but I'm ready to move forward. Now that all the ugliness is out of my life...I can begin to appreciate the beauty that is experience.